grinus

     I served ten years in the U.S Army as 11B – Light infantryman. During that time I served as a grenadier, and as I progressed than as a fire team leader. I suppose that is the most noteworthy thing I have done with my life. Is it strange to dislike the very instruments you became so proficient with after seeing the effect it has?

I found a wonderful escape in video games to forget the terrible things we as human beings do for the sake of freedom, religion, politics, and various other thoughtless things. I had played games prior to being in the Military but it was just recreation at the time, not a form of therapy.

I’ve had a difficult time readjusting back to normal life as my perspective was completely different from where I started in life. It is still something I struggle with. I have been many things since I returned to normal life but so many things had changed after I had turned 28. I didn’t feel vibrant and youthful. I felt 40 as I finally saw the world with open eyes.

I have been a computer technician, a caregiver, a salesperson, retailer, wholesaler, manager, construction worker, a stay at home foster-father, office cleaner, waiter, busboy, gas attendant, and businessman. Now, I find myself without a place of belonging and without purpose.  Gaming has become a refuge. I appreciate the little things I once took for granted. The air we breathe, fresh water, the wonderful companionship of animals, having a place to live, food to eat.. All of these and more a lot of people do not have.

Live life and don’t falter as I have. Existence is a gift. Appreciate your family, be kind when possible and embrace your lover/pets/friends.